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Death Of An Emo

my bedroom is my coffin
sprayed with sweet formalin
I lay still with my bloodshot eyes open
as my chaotic mind is wondrin'

I think I need some nicotine
to kiss the smoke as it spells your name
I think I need some wine or caffeine
to taste your heat when we're fuckin'

I think I need some cocaine
to get away from all burden
I think I have to lick that bloodstain
to erase the memory of pain

I think I need you to lean on
I'm weak, I can't move on
because though I think I drown
still I don't wa

Last night
I dreamed...
of you,

smiling sweetly
as if you never made me cry

I stared at your lips
I remembered how our teeth clanked
the first time we kissed
I heard myself giggle.

then you spoke
as if we're in good terms

I felt your warm breathe
I remembered how you dirty-talked
while you tickled my ear
I felt stiff

while you embrace me
as if you never hurt me

I sensed the longing on your skin
I remembered that day
we lost ourselves
I miss you baby...

I felt so cold inside
I was awaken
I peeped out of the window,
it's raining

I felt colder,
then I realized
I am crying...
just like all the nights

the Grass Spoke

Like a crisp of fog catching a seep of sun's breath, he would soon evaporate...

So how could I recognize him among those masses of cloud above? And when they pour down as rain, which drop would I catch in my palms? If ever I catch him, would he not slip from my hands again? So could I still cull him from among those creeks of precipitations? Or would I just let him flow away to the seas and the oceans? And like a striving grass in the arid, let myself be deprived of even scanty dewdrops?

Only the teardrops I have not poured out yet would withstand me. Oh, how I wish I were something else! The bristle cone which exudes ch

Of Waiting And Cheating...

...you're letting me go
now you don't mind me

outside your heart's room
outside your life's home

if only i came
just a bit earlier,

maybe the door is still close
so i can still knock

knowing you're waiting inside
for me to come in

but now it is open
i get it, i'm late

that no matter how much
i wanted to barge in

i just lost the right
to stand and fight

my fault, i admit
foolish me...it's my defeat.

...if only i came
just a bit earlier

sori,
di ko naramdaman

na bertdey mo
30th,
ang pinakamalungkot...

sori,
di ko naunawaan

wala akong alam
kaya wala akong karapatan
na turuan ka

sori,
di ko napansin

nasaktan kita...
naisip ko lang
ng umalis ka.

pwede ba magpaliwanag?

malungkot din ako
'kala mo

'andyan ka kasi
at 'andito ako

kaya lingid lahat
'gang 'kala na lang

pero ang totoo
pareho lang tayo

mag-isa
sawi

nagdadalamhati
nagpapariwara

nawawalan ng direksyon
kung sana...

magkrus
landas natin

makikita ko,
makikita mo

pareho lang tayo
may luhang tinatago.

I want you to know... I call you by your last name...
You said my name is beautiful. Thanks, but you know what? I don't like my second name - Jean.
I was born May 21, you were born January 1. I am 20 days, 4 months and 13 years younger than you, doesn't matter.
You like younger women, we're vivacious. I like older men, you're wiser.
Blue's Clues! February 14 last year, my date and I watched the movie Baler. February 14 this year, I'm dating someone from Baler.
I understand that your family is very important to you. I have this feeling that if circumstances will force you to make a choice, you'll choose them over me, right?
Back to our old school days,

i didn't wear my watch
i want to forget it's Thursday
i don't want 2:00 a.m. to come

still something in me anticipates
while something in me dies
while i lose myself

i almost uttered a prayer
that he'd still be there
sitting...
sipping his Starbucks coffee

even though i have in my hands
the note he wrote
in this tear-soaked tissue

my heartbeat became my clock
i watched the door swung open,
and close, as people come and go

i looked for his face
but i only find it in my mind
i started to worry

i searched for his presence
but i only feel him in my heart
i started to cry

i hate this tissue!
it did not lie to me

I'm Over You

Your ghost haunts me no more
on ebony nights that I'm alone
I now have peaceful sleeps
gone are those painful weeps

Your shadow follows me no more
on bright days that I'm idle
I now am a sane creature
gone are my crazy demeanors

My mind is crystal clear
It's not you who I deserve
I've changed my prayers
I became much wiser

My heart won't make me stupid
my emotions won't bend my decisions
I've changed my faith
before it is too late

Now I can look straight to your eyes
Smile at you with no disguise
Meet you vis-a-vis
You're someone I'll no longer miss...

and maybe you'd wonder
why suddenly I just don't care
why I act like

sa paghupa ng apoy,
'di ko wari kung sadya
o naligaw ka lang
na sa pugad ko'y makipisan

nabali ko na
mura't malambot mong mga pakpak
narinig ko na
impit mong pag-iyak

ngunit minsan,
at minsan,
isang dipang langit
sabay na nating nalipad

subalit sa pagdausdos,
pababa...
ay ang pagdalisdis din
ng ilang patak ng luha.

isang taon...
mga pakpak mo'y ikakampay na
lilipad ka, bababa,
at hahalik sa pulang lupa

apat o lima pang taon...
mga pakpak mo'y ikakampay muli
lilipad ka, babalik,
sa lupang itim na sa pighati

ang mailap mong mga mata,
na di ko natitigan ni minsan
ang matalas mong pakiramdam,
na 'di naman ako nagulat pa

Pangungulila

lulan ng aircon bus
subalit maalinsangan
nakasandal sa kutson
ngunit ramdam ang latay sa katawan

nakaiPod
pero bingi ang pakiramdam
nagtitext sa cellphone
ngunit bagot din naman

dumungaw sa bintana
kinuha ang digicam
iniumang sa target subject
subalit nanamlay lang

bakit kahit ano gawin...
nanunuot sa kalamnan
bakit kahit ano isipin...
puso ay sinusutsutan

early na pumapasok sa work
nago-OT pa para maging busy lang
lahat ng nagpapaalala sa kanya
puro iniiwasan

ngunit sadyang nagsusumiksik
kahit pinipigilan
sa biyahe pauwing bahay

with a push of a button
and a click of the mouse
from my screen to yours

I am sending my love
with a cyber kiss
and a code for a hug

False Hope, Then Hope Falls...

swiftly,
like when an eye winks

and abruptly
the heart sinks

pain pricks
like million thorns,

jealousy wakes
self scorns...

of ifs and whys
of doubts and crys

that boils the blood
that brings such grudge

would end in misery?
pulled by gravity

wish as if dead
deep down the grave

that's how hope falls
when hopes are all false

Why is it painful to love?

We never know
but when it slits our being
it can last a lifetime

We never know
but where it hits us
causes paralysis

We never know
but who hurts us
is always the most special

We never know
why they always do
we're just always left wond'rin'

so We never know
how to heal the wounds
if ever they do heal, still there's always deep scars

Love Overdosage

You gave me everything
so that I'll learn to return them back to you
I received nothing

You made me a possession
so that I'll know to whom I belong
until you forgot that I am also mine

You studied what I really am
and you realized I am not like you
so that you needed to mold me into your likeness

You loved me too much
until we both drowned
as we lost ourselves

because now what you see in you is me
and you started to think that you are me
so that you won't understand

because you spent all your time
trying to make me understand you
until you forgot that you should have understood yourself first

still I know, you won't listen t

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Cold Sunset

by ~sarjan, Sep 24, 2008, 10:36:45 PM
Literature / Poetry / Romantic / Post-Teen (Mature) / Visual & Found Poetry

above the pink sky,
behind those silent clouds
are emotions...

beneath the frozen water,
within the stillness of the sea
are memories...

of the forgotten
who longs to be remembered...
just when the sun sets
and my tears fall

as your guitar is broken
and Morrison sings his goodbye
our hands lose grip...

our footsteps make a rhythm
of stones clashing by the beach
but they leave no prints

they are washed ashore...

Cold Sunsetby ~sarjan

Literature / Poetry / Romantic / Post-Teen (Mature) / Visual & Found Poetry

cold winter nights...

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~AWordEnchantress Jul 3, 2009 Writer

A truly beautiful poem

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~sarjan Jul 4, 2009 Hobbyist General Artist

thank you so much for the favorite

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~Dreaming-Moon Dec 30, 2008

I think the beginning and the end are the best parts of the poem.

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~sarjan Dec 30, 2008 Hobbyist General Artist

thank you so much^^

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~Dreaming-Moon Dec 30, 2008

You're welcome

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~sarjan Feb 24, 2010 Hobbyist General Artist

oh just noticed this one now...thank you so much!

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!EverydaySaint Feb 28, 2010 Hobbyist Writer

Haha, of course.

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~PrinceofPeace1237 Dec 5, 2008

Great work Sarra

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